Saturday, October 24, 2009
The Earth Diet begins....
The Earth Diet begins!!!!
Tomorrow I will take on the biggest, fattest (or skinniest!), healthiest, most demanding challenge of my life!
(Am I the only nut to take this on? Let me know if anyone else out there wants to give this a go too! We can do it together)
What: I will eat only natural and wholesome foods provided by the earth for 365 days. The Earth Diet challenge! No processed foods, no artifical anythings, no sweetners, no additives, no enhanced flavours and preservatives!
Name: The Earth Diet
Where: Where ever I am in the world, under any circumstance I must say no to any man made food!
When: Starting tomorrow Sunday 25th October 2009 for 365 days until October 25th 2010!
Why: To empower myself and others in choosing what we put in our mouths. To create a healthy, balanced eating lifestyle and look and feel totally hottt! I believe that doing this I will achieve weight loss, I will feel great, look hot, feel hot, have peace of mind, tone up, tighten up, be healthier, shiny, clean, gain confidence, have control, love myself again, have courage, self confidence, be free from resentment, guilt and regret on myself and happiness.
Biggest Fear: I am afraid of failing. I am afraid of finding out that I do not have control over my food addiction and that I will live with the pain and suffering of the binge eating for the rest of my life.
I declare: I declare my binge eating and pain addiction complete as of right now!
Inspirations: You. If I have a craving for junk food, or the pain body comes in and wants some binge-action and pain, I will think of you. Whether anyone actually reads this or not, you, someone or just cyber space, it will keep me accountable, I will have to be true to my word, because I will think oh no I’m not eating that because I will check in at my blog tonight and I will not write ‘today I failed’ or ‘I couldn’t do it’. I’m sick of my ‘I can’t do it’ attitude when it comes to food, it’s now time for ‘I CAN’. Control.
Rules: To eat foods from the earth; fruits, vegetables, nuts, eggs, meat, fish. Anything that comes from a tree, a plant, the ground, the ocean I will eat.
Not to eat; Foods not from the earth; anything that has been tampered by man, anything with chemicals on the back of the package that I cannot even pronounce, soft drinks, lollies, chocolates, chips, cakes, cookies, processed flours, breads. Anything that comes from a factory I will not eat.
If you want to hear my “story” and more “whys” for my Earth Diet challenge then read below. I will check in every night and post a blog about my day doing the Earth Diet!
Tomorrow I will take on the biggest, fattest, healthiest, most demanding challenge of my life!
And I mean the biggest! To add dramatic effect: I thought these were my ‘big’ challenges I took on in the past (but these aint nothing compared to what I am about to do!): Sky diving, bungy jumping, cooking a rabbit on ‘I’m a Celebrity, Get Me Outta Here’, hitting the snow slopes in NZ after a broken butt and one day of lessons, riding a 6 foot wave in California, dressing up as a giant testicle, painting a canvas nude with my boyfriend, finding a tumour in my throat, announcing to my whole grade 3 class that I wanted to own a butcher shop when I grew up, being constipated at 3 years old at Kindergarten and deciding as a 3 year old what to do and how to survive that moment, going to the USA with $200 and ending up working on a film with Christian Bale, Amy Adams and Mark Wahlberg, ,creating I Love Earth a worldwide organization to reduce carbon emissions from around the world, travelling Europe for 3 months on my own with a camera and documentary in mind and a dream to reduce depression and suicide worldwide, going to a party with Pamela Anderson, creating the possibility of going to the moon (still pending hehe!),giving my entire Disney collection to the Psychiatric Ward (was hard to let that one go!), growing up in Alice Springs, living in a town of 200 people for 4 years, eating cow cellulite and mastering circular breathing for didgeridoo playing ....well my new challenge IS THE BIGGEST, MOST FRIGHTENTING, HEALTHIEST, MOST DEMANDING CHALLENGE I have ever considered taking on! Because I’m afraid of failing.
For five years I have battled with finding a ‘balanced’ eating lifestyle. My weight constantly yo-yos, as does my energy, vitality and social activities. Basically my whole life revolves around food. I let it get out of control 5 years ago. I was 17 and modelling, I was energetic, fit and healthy, I didn’t worry about food, focus on it or put attention or energy on what I ate, I basically ate anything and everything but in moderation and balance. Then I’m not sure what ‘happened’ and when the exact point was, but something changed in me and all of a sudden I was eating junk food, and not because I liked it, but because I has this underlying feeling of guilt and thoughts of ‘I’m not good enough’, ‘I can’t do it’ and ‘I’m not in control’. I didn’t even like the junk food I was eating; I would scoff down an ice cream, and not even remember what it tasted like, totally unconscious, then I would feel so guilty that I was ruining my body with toxins, that I would get fat and ugly and it felt like I was punishing myself. This guilt I created inside me would create a resistance in my body and that would make the food hard to digest and excrete. Now I have bowel issues, and if I am stressed, it just doesn’t work at all!
For 5 years this has gone on, until tomorrow. Tomorrow I will commit to 365 days of process free food and only eat foods that the earth provides. For 5 years I have struggled with bouncing back and forth from extreme organic healthy person, to a junk food binger. I would hide this from my friends and family. I would only want them to see me as a healthy person, so if I was in binge-mode I was by myself, I would silence any phone calls I received and reject any social offers to go out or meet with anyone! One week I would detox and have a colonic, along with beetroot juices, and all natural foods, and I would feel great, and clean and shiny, and once I got to this feeling I would sabotage it and binge on as much junk food as I could in one day! This became an exhausting vicious circle! I learnt that I had an addiction when it got to the 5 year mark. In the dictionary an addiction is described as “the state of being enslaved to a habit or practice or to something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming” and I felt I had no control over what went in my mouth and that I wasn’t able to go for longer than a week without a binge. I had no power or integrity around it at all, I would have a thought ‘I should eat some chocolate’ and then feel I would have to go and eat it, that I had no choice but to just do it. Once I learnt I had an addiction I realized I was addicted to the pain of this experience. Each week would be different. Each week my moods would change with the foods, the amount of chemicals I would consume. I always seem to be more calm, more relaxed, happy and peaceful when I eat wholesome real foods as opposed to a nervy, yoyo moody stress head when my body is full of toxic foods. The last ‘binge spree’ I had was today, I started the day with white bread with peanut butter and vegemite, a small packet of special k, a piece of chocolate fudge, a ham and egg wrap, a white chocolate and macadamia chunk cookie, a packet of gobstopper candy, 2 scones with butter and vegemite, a picnic bar and a chocolate freddo frog, a kit kat and another freddo frog, French fries and a chicken wrap. Then another chocolate bar ; snickers. I didn’t enjoy any of this, I felt tired, drousy and dizzy.
I believe that doing this will empower me – so I will have a deep confidence of knowing that I do have control and I can choose what I eat, instead of feeling like a victim to a food/pain addiction.
I also hope this empowers you to want to be healthy and to know that you can choose health.
I’ve tried so many things and ways to get rid of this over the past 5 years. I’ve had colonics in the hope that it would wash out my craving cells so I wouldn’t crave sugar – didn’t work, I tried detoxing with beetroot and ginger juice to get it all out of my system, I tried yoga, meditations, I was even hypnotised, I’ve tried ‘starting again’ hundreds of times! I would have a massive binge and say ‘this is definitely the last time, I’ve had enough, tomorrow I will start, tomorrow, tomorrow’, Tomorrow never came.
I believe that the earth provides us with all the natural resources we need – including food. The aboriginals lived off the land for hundreds of years. I am hoping as a last resort that by me taking on this Earth Diet challenge, and eating wholesome foods from the earth, my bingeing addiction will totally disappear and I will be able to maintain a happy and healthy balance when it comes to food and health!
I’m actually starting to freak out now. I just realized what I have created and that tomorrow I will not be able to eat an ice cream, how will I know how to be? How do I ‘be’ without an addiction? It’s been part of my identity for 5 years.
I told my boyfriend about the challenge and after a silent pause he said “That sounds crazy. That sounds full on. Yeah totally crazy. Liana that’s crazy. You know go for it, but it’s going to be expensive.” That’s something I hadn’t taken into consideration. Will it be cheaper eating earth foods or manmade foods? When I told my flatmate about my new Earth Diet challenge he laughed and said “But why?”.....I guess we will see.....